Brighter Side

just look on the brighter side...

2006-05-08T15:47:00.000-07:00

Although I want to avoid that topic, it's inevitable.... I guess I have to face the fact but I still hope that it will not happen to all of us....

I've received a lot of textmessages from my college friends and so as phone call from my classmate,seatmate,teammate and dormmate (whatta nickname for her!) exchanging "kamusta na?" and all until we reach to the topic that I don't want... asking me if there are still ways and vice versa....

I know its really hard for us because we have already established a bonding and of course friendship that we strive hard to get for two years then suddenly ---

knowing that fact, It makes me feel sad once in a while and keep on praying every night that He will help through this thing....

I believe He can help me.... but at the end of the day, Its His will that matters... and so I'm preparing myself for this event. "Just look on the brighter side...."

changes...

2006-04-29T20:43:00.000-07:00

It feels so good to talk about things which makes you happy, makes you sad because in that way you’ll realized that someone out there is willing to listen. Someone who’s willing to give advices and who will be your comfort zone. Someone whom you call a “Friend”

A friend of mine once told me that “attachment” was a difficult thing. The more you’ve become used to it, the more its hard for you to let go. Well then it’s true. Sometimes it is better to be alone, No pain, no problem. What matters is your own life. Selfish as it may sounds but that’s the only way not to feel the pain.

“No man is an island”, yes it’s true. But what if you need time to contemplate? – you’ll definitely need to be alone.

Once, I told to my friends that if there’s something in my body that I want to take away, it’s my hypothalamus. So that I’ll not be able to feel the pain. No emotions to be exact. Because the trend is always like this: A moment of happiness and then its gone… or worse, the moment you’re start investing emotionally, they will take it/them from you.

Maybe I’m just a person who’s afraid of changes. I can’t accept the fact that someday, something will end so soon… or maybe I’m just too afraid to be hurt…. I guess so… that’s why every decision I make, I’ll make sure I’ll never be hurt nor fail…. I’m not a risk taker. All I wanted is perfection…

>> I admire….

Those people who can accept changes in life easily… sometimes I think that these people are not a big fan of so-called “attachment…” Although it makes them sad but it’s just temporarily… then life goes on for them.

>> And Now…

I’m beginning to accept the fact and the reality that the only permanent thing in this world is change… I have to change my perspective in life. It’s time to learn from other people though it’s really hard for me…It will take time to give my trust once more… because I really I value it. Only few people can have it…I believe in Quality and not quantity…

But then my friend is true… once she told me that “Look at the brighter side….”

>> But then again…..

I wish, once again…. That they will not take them away from me because I have to start all over again… just this one….

At least....

2006-03-04T09:24:00.000-08:00

Now, I have a big circle of friends…. Well of course bigger than my highschool friends…

>>FLashback....<<

I'm not an anti-social person when I was in highschool, it was just that I'm occupied with works, so I don't have the chance to know them all.... Maybe it was my problem - I have the opportunity but didn't grab it. And well, considering that I look snobbish and "mataray" umm, what's new?

>>CaUseS<<
1. Occupied with works... BLame it on my Extracurricular activities!...
2. Relationship of the whole class wasn't united.... so why bother?
3. I'm comfortable with smaller number friends. I believed that the smaller the better. At least I can focused on certain people unlike bigger crowd....

>>AnD NoW....<<

All this time, I thought I'll be stuck with smaller number of friends... once again...

But I was wrong...

>>Maybe because the class has a good relationship unlike when I was in highschool... there's unity
>>I'm still "mataray" in some ways, but my friends are already "immune"
>>I'm not that busy anymore with my extracurricular activities... Although I'm busy with studies, I have the opportunity to unwind... In addition to that, we're bombarded with group works so more opportunity to have friends...

In the EnD....

>>I still believed that "No Man is an Island" - in one way or another, these people will help you out, thick or thin....

>>It improves my social life....

>.>I still love my highschool friends (I still hope they do...)

Time goes by...

2006-02-11T18:58:00.000-08:00

Time goes by……. So fast….

Or it’s just that I’m too occupied that’s why I didn’t notice my time….
I’m so bombarded with many paper works from our “major problem subjects” i.e. minor subjects – that’s the way we call it!.... From industry paper, case analysis and product development…. We just arrived in one thing, it’s just like “THESIS…” we’re not yet graduating and I don’t know why we have to face such things…

I just thought…..

It’s part of life my dear! No pain, No gain…..
Accept it as a challenge! Just like your part of the reality game show: Survivor! And the price that you get? – Not $1M! But Good grades perhaps…..

On the verge of giving up..... but I'm not!

2006-01-26T22:10:00.000-08:00

This week, we have seen the results of our examinations.... quite good....

>> but some are not..... most especially our law subjects.... i.e. Law on Sales and Constitution....

>>Fine - it's our major subjects anyway that' why its tough-errrrrrr......... and hard-errrrrrrr. But the point is, we're not yet in law school and yet our effort is not enough to get a passing grade in the examination, and of course, our midterm grade.....

>> I can see that we give our very best but it's not enough

>> most of my classmates failed..... and me? - just a passing grade.... don't ask it anyway! it's not good to see nor to hear.....

>> tears flooded in our room last wednesday..... we are wearing our saddest face... great timing since it was raining that time........ as I told my friend..... "nakikisama ang langit sa pagluha ng mga tao dito......"

>> I know, i don't have the right to wear my saddest face since I've passed that most difficult subject..... but I felt my effort was not enough. 10 times effort? - still not enough?

>> we still need more efforts...

>> I'm on the verge of giving up..... but I'm Not!

>> This is not the right time to give up
>> If I give, surely, I'll fail......
>> I've remember that one commercial, it's banner statement: "Fall seven times, stand eight times....."

>> True......

>> All I have to do is remember that....

sometimes, it's getting harder....

2006-01-18T16:28:00.000-08:00

I know....

>> sometimes, what you wish for, is not what you get.....
>> it doesn't mean that you didn't get at all.... it's not what you've expected to happen....

>> I'm not complaining to Him for giving me such.... In fact I'm very thankful.....
>> Maybe the problem is with me.....

<<>>

"When it rains, it pours"

>> midterms,midterms,midterms and more midterms......
>> sleepless for a moment
>> tired eyes because of reading
>> the saddest part: what you've studied , didn't came out in any items of the exam.... o well, it's true..... "the least you expect will be the one..." - that's why we had the hard time answering our theo exam... huhuhu....

>> bottomline....

"Don't give up!"

...never thought....

2005-12-31T10:42:00.000-08:00

Last December, I was very excited for our Christmas Vacation.....

I thought I'll have some relaxation galore!!!!

But then, I was wrong.... Christmas Vacation is meant for studying!
(uh, it's not unusual!)

I have to finish all the requirements, from reporting to paperworks.... so that by January I don't have to worry.... All I have to worry is our midterm examinations...

Thanks to the cooperation of my groupmates.....

And so....

>I'm almost done that's why I have the time to update my blog =)

bottomline.....

>Almost worry-free!

Any regrets?...

nope! my vacation is still meaningful because I'm worry-free..... although i'm stressed out for the past weeks..... =)

...it just melts my heart...

2005-12-20T10:46:00.000-08:00

For one thing - I Love it!

--- But then again it taught me a lot of things....

--- The Realizations....

We need lots of understandings...
"Don't judge the book by it's cover" - definitely true!
That one way or another, human beings and animals understand each other so long as you treat them (animals) nicely....
Some people adored "money" and "fame" they didn't care that they can harm people or even animals....

--- And I'm talking about the movie King Kong....

At first, I don't like to watch that movie. Maybe because it's just all about a huge Ape and all - that's it! But I''ve never expected that it's really nice! And it's all worth it too...

Many movie reviews would tell that it's all about a beauty-tamed-the-beast story or beauty-captured-the-beast.... well, for me its beauty-tamed-the-beast-because-she-treated-it-nicely.... (whew! that's long!)
Although many people would say that King Kong "somehow" fell in love with Anne Darrow (Naomi Watts)... I think that Anne Darrow was close to King Kong's heart because she's the only one who treated King Kong nicely.... very simple!

I just love the scene where King Kong fought with the T-Rex! Wow! that's nice!!!! I really loved that scene!

Ok, I'm not going to tell more about this movie.... You have to watch it!

A movie combine with Action, Drama, Romance and suspense - you'll definitely love it! (mag-endorse daw ba!)

--- Enough of that.....

I'm really thankful that there's already "Animal Rights." I'm not an animal lover but then again I know their rights.... they also have the right to live in this world and need to be respected....

...unspoken....

2005-12-13T00:27:00.000-08:00

Last night, my friend asked me if I'm mad at her.....

--- I told her, "I'm not mad at you.... i just don't like talking to people...." - true....
--- I have no grudge nor anger.
--- I don't talk to her simply because I want to her to learn her lessons....

The problem and it's background.....

--- For the past 3 weeks, I didn't felt her presence... I know she has problems in every aspect of her life (family,school,lovelife - name it.....) and so she has to missed everything - from quizzes to activities.... and yet, she didn't care about it! - what's wrong with her?
--- "She's talk of the town..." some people think that the guy she used to hold hands with (plus hugging...) is her boyfriend.... but she always tell them: "Hindi siya.... iba ung gusto ko..."
--- My reaction:
"Hello! ano na lang ang sasabihin ng ibang tao?!? na play girl ka and all!!! kung makapaglambingan kayo e parang "kayo" na nga..." - see?
--- I know she's not that kind of girl.... I know it all... (Pero pa'no ung ibang taong nakakakita/ Maiintindihan ba nila? - Hindi!!!)
--- We tried to talk to her (assuming that she's ready to listen....) but, our efforts are wasted! she didn't listen to our advice..... she didn't realized that it's for her benefits and not ours!
--- And so I'm fed up! I'm sick and tired of giving her advice, understanding her.....

The problem with her?....

"Lahat ng problema, ginagawang big deal..... kahit napakaliit lang!" see?
That's why she suffered a lot! she always thinks that the whole world is on her shoulder!

And now.....

--- "Deadma...." - that's the only thing I can say..... we haven't talked since last week.....

Plan of Action?

--- As of this moment..... I have no plans..... (just give a little time....)
--- I'm not that cruel. I want to help her, really- she's actually going through a hard time....
--- I don't want her to suffer more....
--- But then, I want to teach her a lesson....

.....fast approaching....

2005-12-10T20:11:00.000-08:00

I'm more excited of our Christmas vacation! - well, no more stressful days....

Most of my entries talks about "Stressful days and all"...... no questions about it.... but I guess, this is the only way to relieved my stress (thanks I have a blog!)

Enough of that stressful stuffs....

Christmas is fast approaching..... (so to all my friends out there..... don't forget my gifts ok? - hahaha I'm just kidding!) this is the season where I can relax.... sleep all day.... eat a lot of delicious foods (...tsk,tsk,tsk.... that's why i'm gaining pounds!), use the phone all day, and of course it's bonding time....

Let’s face it

2005-12-09T03:40:00.000-08:00

Let’s face it….
They say “no man is an island” – But there are times that you have to be alone….

Let’s face it….
That in a minute or two, things will change may be good or bad…

Let’s face it….
There are things that you really want to, but you have to let go… because time calls for it….

Let’s face it….
We’re just human, born to make mistakes – but behind that imperfection, we must strive to perfection…

Let’s face it….
Sometimes, we give our very best, but we end up nothing….

Let’s face it….
That the only permanent thing in this world is “change”…..

Let’s face it….
Although we try to be strong, we can’t help but breakdown – we’re still weak inside….

Let’s face it….
We’re living in reality and not in an ideal world….

Let’s face it….
Things are going complicated, not because of our misfortunes, but because these are only TRIALS that we have to face….

...At the end of the day....

2005-12-03T01:34:00.000-08:00

Stressful week is over but it seems that it’s still not weekend.
Days are getting fast but it feels like years because of so many school works….
Pressure is here once more….
But I never think of it as the end of the world!
Of course I can’t do anything but to do all these stressful things… giving up or even crying is not the answer because for sure, it will be totally end of the world for me!!! Nobody wants to fail! Who wants to? – right?
But at the end of the day, I’ve realized that “working people” have the right to say, indeed, it’s very stressful!
Just imagine that you’re working for four or five decades of your entire life! Whereas studying is just for 16 years (including preschool…) or 21 years at most, for those people who want to be doctors or lawyers… *sigh*
So I guess I don’t have to complain about all these stressful stuffs… (and so I guess I feel better now…)
as long as you can handle things, you can survive….

...Reflections...

2005-11-26T08:14:00.000-08:00

And so I've realized that...

...Time management is really important - if you don't have this, you have a little chance for survival....tsk,tsk...

...Learn to control your emotions;be calm; mommy won't be there to wipe your tears and make you feel stronger...(hahaha!) Assurance: You'll definitely have a good day! =)

...Focus and Concentrate on what you're doing...noises are inevitable(even in libraries...) so don't mind those noises!

...Smiling can brighten up your day and makes you feel confident!

...Be kind inside although you don't look nice outside...(hmmm...how's that?!?)

...Cry for a while but not all the time....

...Just take things easy....don't consider everything as a burden, remember that there's always a purpose...

...Make your day as if it's your last...at least you do all the things you want....

...And so, if you do the things you want, remember that there's always limitations...there's a big difference between right and wrong.... as in BIG Difference!

...We deserve some Relaxations!!!! (Having a pizza night once a week plus Cadbury's Chocolate Bars,...Stress will definitely go away!!!! yum! =)
or SHOPPING.... my favorite! Advice: It's fun when you do it with a friend (or with friends...)!

...Staying late at night is a bad habit and bad for your skin too!!! you can do it once a week but not everyday! having a good night sleep can help your brain function very well - so you're ready for school...

...Don't forget to Pray....

...Important people need special attention (i.e. family and friends...) so show how much you love them...

....Friday once again

2005-11-25T01:23:00.000-08:00

After going through some stressful days, at last! it's Friday
I'm excited to go home and (sleep....) - actually use the phone and once again, talk to my friend for about 2 hours....(what's new....)
I have a lot of things to tell her....
besides that, it's bonding time, once again, with my brothers!

Again

2005-11-20T04:03:00.000-08:00

...It's Monday once again
...Saturday and Sunday was over (of course)
...No more telebabads(ummm,just for 5 days! since i'm not home...)
...Back to school once more (and also dorm...)

Piece of advice:
...start your day with a smile! =) although there are a lot of works to do!
...start your day right....

Time Calls for it

2005-11-19T04:02:00.000-08:00

Giving up is not in my vocabulary... As far as I'm concern, it's not the answer for every problems that you face in life... One of my motivation was: "Pinasok mo 'to kaya panindigan mo..." true enough....

But then, it's not absolute... one thing that frustrates me is that leaving the things that you always wanted to do in life,... not because I don't want it, but because I need to prioritize the most important thing - and don't want to be unfair...

It's very hard to decide on this matter, but in the end, I chose to left... because time calls for it...
and I'm gonna miss not only that thing, but also them....

Hide and Seek

2005-11-18T04:00:00.000-08:00

Last Thursday night was a very tiring moment for me... I mean not only me but also to my dorm mate, teammate, blockmate, seatmate (Hi Rica!)...

I'm afraid of creepy crawlies... most especially cockroaches!!! - flying cockroaches aren't nice either!!! and I believe that they don't deserve to live in this world... (I know it's bad, but I have bad experiences with these creepy crawlies...)

We we're talking then, when I suddenly notice a cockroach crawling into the wall... i told Rica that: "Patayin na natin yun..." but she refused, she just said..."Hayaan mo lang siya..." my eyes can't take off that cockroach because it was irritating to see that entity inside our room...

Suddenly, it crawled to the floor... and was gone.... (but it doesn't end there...it's just hiding somewhere in the room...) and so I can't take it anymore... Again, I told Rica "Hanapin natin yun tapos patayin na natin baka mamaya gumapang pa yun, o kaya lumipad... sige ka, baka mamaya katabi mo na pagkagising mo..." once again she said, "wala na yun... kita mong gumapang na palayo..."

I was relieved for sometime... when it showed up again, crawling into the wall... again and again, I told her "O ayan na, patayin na natin..." and suddenly, flew into our direction! we we're screaming so loud and I ran into Rica's direction...

It was gone(again... I mean hiding again...) this time, I'm ready to get rid of it (though I'm afraid...) but how can I, if it was hiding? After 20 minutes of waiting, it showed up, crawling into my bed! (eeeewww!) I was shouting then: "Rica, ayan na yung ipis patayin mo na!!!" and she argued " ikaw kaya, ikaw yung nasa baba!" - of course, I won't! I'm afraid... so Rica went down into her bed chasing after that cockroach...and killed it!
At last, there's nothing more to fear.... but I still have problem, I have to clean that thing (though I don't want to do it...) so using a broom, that cockroach was out of our room!

Still Awake

2005-11-12T03:59:00.000-08:00

I know it's late and I'm still awake.... Although I feel sleepy, it's all worth it...
I'm chatting with my dad and my brother. It's our means of communication besides landline and cellphone...
Though they're far away, we can still keep in touch with each other... I really missed them a lot so I'm allotting at least 3 hours of my time to chat with them...

At Last (from Friendster)

2005-11-11T03:55:00.000-08:00

This blog is empty for months… and since my friend Ela wants me to post something so that we can at least keep in touch with one another and together with my other friends… so here I am….

Second semester is here again and it’s getting tougher than before… Time is limited for me since I need to study hard. (I know it’s not just me who is actually experiencing this kind of situation…) and sometimes, I need to give up on things that I usually do so that I can compromise my studies…

I don’t think it’s a burden for me or even a hindrance. I actually take it as a challenge. If I was able to survived last semester, then I can actually do it this second semester.

It’s funny to know that there is also someone who is actually more worried than I am… she was actually worried that she can’t survive this semester…. she even compares herself to those people failed to pass in the board exam! She told me that they made a lot of sacrifices but in return, they still failed. She might experience that also… Hello…. I told her that taking the board is exam is VERY different from what we’re taking right now. Yes, we have also examinations but there are also quizzes and activities so that we can pass the subject, unlike those people who are taking board exams, the only basis to pass is the examination….Actually, it takes me a lot of time to persuade her that she can do it…. But then again, I see a lot of changes from my friend. She became at least optimistic. Before, it was actually very hard to persuade her because she’s close minded to see some brighter side of life…. So keep it up!